Shodai’s Blog September 2 2009 6:53 AM Playas de Tijuana, Baja California, México
Shiken haramitsu daikomyo!
It has been too long since I have written to you my children. The last entry in my diary to you was on my birthday. This of course does not mean that I did not think of you. I have pictures of you in the living room and on my desk where I work, and a constant picture of you in my mind and heart. Part of the problem is to whom am I addressing? Am I writing to the 7 and 4 year old I say last in person or the 8 and 5 year old I saw last on webcam? Or am I writing to adolescents now as I have failed in my quest to prevail before the Court system? Or am I writing to adults who grew to think of me with implanted rancor and disdain?
There is also the possibility for the need for censorship in my writings hear, lest your mother discover these communications and use them against me in her demonstrated endeavor to eradicate all and everything having to do with me from your minds and existence. It is a difficult task that of writing not knowing the mind or mindset of the intended reader.
There is another issue whose explanation will become central to this communication: my private war with the English-speaking world. The English-speaking world as I have known it, which is to say the United States, Canada and England, is a world of much law and order but of little justice, and it has been that way to our people - the People of Chief Pappis and others – from the beginning of our time. It is my private war against the culture that has brought little but injustice to so many people in the world, the Cherokee nation during the Trail of Tears, millions of Africans during the times of the Middle Passage – the slave trade – and the centuries of slavery and legalized discrimination in the
There is a terrible problem in the Anglo-Saxon world, in particular in the United States, it is a problem of a people corrupted, poisoned by the very acts that they have perpetrated upon other peoples: when you do bad things to other people you are actually doing bad things to yourself as evil-doings are the sure path to the Dark Side. Which reminds me, Alex in particular, I am teaching about the Dark Side, fear and attachment using the Star Wars series to illustrate my points. Fear poisons the mind and leads the body to acts of evil that are ultimately self-destructive. This is something I know you already are aware of as we have spoken of these things, but you need to understand this at a most profound (deep) level so as not to poison your own minds in any way. (I am losing the focus of what I wanted to say as there is so much to say!)
In Star Wars, Anakin Skywalker begins as a child who wants to become a Jedi more than anything. He finally gets his chance and his mother, a truly exceptional woman, allows him to leave with Qui-Gon Jinn because she knows he has far more to offer him than she does living her life as a slave. That is a lesson many mothers should learn as the trend is more often than not doing everything possible to keep children from their fathers just to punish their ex-husbands for not wanting to live with them any more. That is just a fact, as it is a fact that the Court system simply indulges mother’s in their quest for revenge against the father’s, acting as if father’s have nothing more to contribute to their children’s lives and upbringing than child support checks.
From the earliest moments of his apprenticeship Anakin holds a deep fear for the loss of his mother; Yoda points out that this fear is a very dangerous part of Anakin’s mind because fear leads to anger, anger leads to hatred, and hatred leads to suffering. It was not Anakin’s mother’s fault that Anakin went to the Dark Side; it was his own fear of losing his mother that leads him in the end. People who have fear seek power over other people and things for they believe that this power will allow them control over the things they fear to lose. But this control never works the way they want: for absolute control is never possible and so as those people, increasingly controlled by their own fear, come to realize that they don’t have the control they wished and this makes them even more fearful, and in response they seek more and more control and hate the things that interfere with their control.
In the case of all too many mothers, they often fear that they will lose their children in the same way they lost their husbands; they are moved to hold on to their children by the pain of loss, loneliness and rejection and they are moved by the anger at their former husbands for causing this loss, loneliness and feelings of rejection. And so, partly in revenge against their former husbands, and partly out of fear of further loss, many moms seek to control their children by using the Court system to keep them from their fathers. But their is a great difference between being a husband and a father, they are two different things and it is wrong to use your children as weapons to punish someone who simply does not want to be with you any longer – for whatever reason. I hope this is something one day you will come to understand. It is wrong because it is selfish and – ultimately – evil: Gangs and prisons are increasingly becoming filled with boys and girls, men and women alike, who ultimately arrived at that point in their lives because they lacked a father, a loving and dedicated father, to guide them and teach them the discipline and respect they needed to become good citizens, to be strong and upstanding. I am not saying that mother’s do not have a purpose, only that father’s do too: a much greater purpose than many mothers and the Court’s are willing to accept despite the sociological and psychological evidence which clearly indicates the importance of fatherhood.
Here is a copy of a letter I sent your mother a little over a year ago, just about the last time I saw you guys:
Jaime Overton
From: James A Overton, Sr. [james@kaizen-center.com]
Sent: Friday, July 11, 2008 11:16 AM
To: 'Shawna Dolansky'
Cc: 'jpclarklaw@aol.com'; '
Subject: About Alex
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11/3/2008
Shawna,
I appreciate very much that you decided to call off the ex-parte scheduled for Thursday. Unfortunately, there were dire consequences that can not be readily dismissed. For one thing, I had to cancel our only opportunity to go to the San Diego Zoo because of it; the patient I cancelled (and whose payment was indispensable to paying for the trip to the zoo) in order to attend the phone call from the Court had already rescheduled her morning when I tried to get her back into my office for her previous appointment. However this is insignificant compared to how Alex was affected by the news on Tuesday, which necessitates explanation.
Since Alex learned that I started a Junior MAMBA’s program he has expressed a great deal of concern regarding other boys having more time to train with his own father than he does, and in particular a preoccupation with the idea that they will ultimately surpass him in rank, status and competence; recently he began to express his concern as to whether he will be better or at least as good as his brother Jimmy.
I can honestly say that have never seen a child so intensely concentrated and motivated in any class as Alex has been. He excels in discipline and attention to detail which begins in his posture during the initial meditation and extends to the final bow. He does lack confidence and aggressiveness in combat but that can and will be overcome with experience and practice. He is not as strong as the other boys, but he is at least as agile, if not more, and with his attention to detail his technique will more than makeup for the differential in strength.
He is however, playing catch up with the other students even though they have not had much time in the program. In chess he only managed a draw with one student, who although older than he, was playing his very first chess game that day; yesterday he defeated twice another student of his own age. Alex is very aware of these facts and is has shown a tremendous motivation to make the most of his time here with me. He, on his own accord, asked to attend the adult class so he could learn more than the other students. Once there he realized that he needed a training partner, so for the next class he asked me if I could convince one of the parents (who are my students as well) to bring a kid with them so he could better practice.
He has also asked to watch my martial arts training videos at home and train away from class to make up for the extra time the other students have with me; although he is also very much aware that this will not be enough.
Much of our time in training has been spent cleaning up mistakes and bad habits from his judo classes (much of my time is spent with the other students cleaning up the garbage they learned in karate). He tells me that the judo instructor pays little to no attention to him there and so he is not learning.
For Alex your attorney’s office phone call could not have come at a worse time. The call came in while we were in class at the small dojo and the topic of the conversation was obvious to anyone who understood English. Alex had just had another couple of disappointing grappling bouts (from his perspective, although I assured him that in reality he did quite well) with two of the other students (not at the same time), and was discussing how he would improve when he returned at the end of the summer.
The idea that that visit may not take place because I would be required to pay for it – the kids are plainly aware of my financial situations and the limitations of my intestinal (mal-) functioning – was the straw that broke the camel’s back: no visit with Daddy means poignantly no Junior MAMBA training, which means the other students will get even further ahead. It is logic any seven year old can handle; the cause and the effect are also clear to him. This is what you observed during the Tuesday webcam session. The children are very well aware of my financial and physical limitations, of how I had to fast for 48 hours prior to picking them up in Boston; of how I have to fast the night and morning before I leave for a simple day visit to San Diego; of how the car broke down a week ago and I only today we are leaving to pick it up for lack of funds; etc.
By the way, not only did he like the Hulk movie, but the next day he insisted that I buy him a Hulk t-shirt However, he was quite reluctant to let you know he enjoyed it. Our son wants to grow up to be a man. You can do what you want with this information.
He also has been telling me about the nightmares he has had in
James
"There is more honor and dignity in righteous loss than in iniquitous victory."
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11/3/
Unfortunately, my gratitude towards your mother was ill-deserved; days later after you guys left she reinstated her call to the Court and I was again in battle with her despite my health problems. In fact, a year earlier, while was in the hospital in the early stages of my treatment for cancer, your mother had her attorney call me and make me come out of the hospital to appear in Court as she was trying – yet again – to cancel your summer visitation with me. None of these things I made up, all of these things are true and are part of the Court record for D0491 976 – that is the record of the Overton vs. Dolansky case. In that record you will be able to confirm all of these things and many, many more regarding what truly happened.
I tell you all of these things not because I want you to hate your mother, my war is not with her but with the corruption of the US government of which the Family Court system is but a manifestation; above all else I want you to realize just how much of a fight I put up against all odds just to be there for you, to be your Daddy as I had been since the moment your were born and that if you grew up without me, and that if things happened to you because I was not in your lives that it was not because I did not want to be there, but because I simply was not allowed to be there. No man or nation of men can win against the will of the
Remember: Oyabun came about as a shadow of envy and hatred because he was angry at Cocoliso and Mero Macho for creating perfect beings but not giving him a body. Remember how he tried to kill Shiken Haramitsu Daikomyo, but then Shiken Haramitsu Daikomyo because the perfect light that inspire love and hope and righteousness in the hearts and minds of all men and women even as they are surrounded by the darkness of Oyabun and his minions!
Love you!
Shiken haramitsu daikomyo!
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